An old log I discovered in the archives

Mark's Dilemma

2004-2-1-6-15-00/Friday

I asked God "How may I serve?".

Silence!

Was it too noisy? Was I not listening? Was I looking in the wrong place ? the wrong medium? I was expecting the answer in the same form as the question.  Why do we have to play this game of asking & seeking in the darkness?

Ha!

I conclude I am without limits from that quarter? (for now).

 

2004-2-1-6-15-13/Friday

Where do I expect the answers to be?

There is an inside world & an outside world for me. I haven't seen any answers in the outside world ? none at all. (Not like a bird or ice cream or a piece of dog shit is really an answer to anything except what is it?)  The answers there in the outside world are all made up by someone or something. I hear my inner voice speaking answers all the time. I hear & see the TV making up all kinds of questions & answers all the time & yet none of it has the Zen power of the sound of water made by a jumping frog into a pond. I expect an answer from God to show up on the inside. My whole world is on the inside. The outside world is very, very different. It is unintelligible, indifferent & everybody seems to make up stories about how it is & what's in it.  I am there inside my world.

 

2004-4-1-6-7-28/Tuesday

What would happen if all the religions of the world came together & acknowledged their gods to be the same:  ecumenism at it's finest ? to save the world for human beings & for God.  Most of the world's religions speak of the Golden Rule in some form as a fundamental rule sacred to righteous  behavior in life ? it needs to be acknowledged again for all human beings to live by.

 

2004-4-3-16-7-19/Friday

God is the ultimate in perfection etc?. why didn't he invent a human body that doesn't die? Or get sick? Outside of Anthroposophy, the  answers have been the reflections of human failings ? "because heaven is where it's all at" ? real life somewhere else.  Some of the answers sound like a parent disciplining a disobedient child.

2004-7-5-29-6-57/Thursday

The movie The Big Bounce has a wonderful line: "God is an imaginary playmate for adults".  I think that a huge amount of the population thinks this way but is afraid to say so for fear of offending believers.

 

2005-2-1-5-9-9/Saturday

All laws seem to me to be unconstitutional! They always offend me or somebody else. They take money from me if they tax - as if the government held a gun to my head.  Taxes must become voluntary & specific in allocation & purpose.

 

2005-2-1-5-9-55/Saturday

A notion ? maybe there is no god except all of us combined ? together! Perhaps, all of us together who have ever lived & those of us who are still living.  "ALL_ah"!  Another Joan of Arcadia moment!

 

2005-2-3-17-9-31/Thursday

On the topic of reincarnation ? one would expect that the knowledge & wisdom & lessons-learned would persist between incarnations.  The intelligence of the beyond (RS) gives me the idea that I should reincarnate only when conditions are sufficiently different from the last incarnation. It seems likely that only some fine extract of knowledge & wisdom will be available to handle life in a different & new era. I looks like I will always have to act from being rather than certain knowledge.

 

2005-12-3-18-8-27/Sunday

I wrote in the blog about adversary versus cooperation. The yin-yang of it all may be impossible to surpass. Although thinking in terms of the creative & the receptive fructified by love can be the start of a reframe.